Face the truth
Kaoru's train arrived on time in Nagano. Now it was just 10 more minutes with the subway to Toshiya's place.
On his way there he was thinking about Toshiya's scent, the way his fingertips brushed over his skin, the way he kissed Kaoru, the way they made love.
Kaoru was 19 and Toshiya 3 years younger then him, but Kaoru always treated Toshiya as if he was as old as him.
Finally he was standing in front of the entrance to the house of the Hara's. Hesitantly he rang the bell.
Toshiya's dad opened the door.
"Hello Mr. Hara! It's nice to meet you!"
Kaoru firmly bowed down.
"You have to be Kaoru-kun right?"
Kaoru just nodded.
"Please come in."
Kaoru stepped inside and Toshiya's father closed the door behind him. Kaoru slipped his shoes off and dropped his back in the corridor.
"Erm... where is Toshimasa?"
"Kaoru please follow me to the living room."
Kaoru felt that something bad was upon him, that the fires of hell would come down on him. He gulped and followed Toshiya's dad to the living room. As they entered the living room Toshiya's mom came onto display. She was sitting on the couch, looking really miserable.
"Please take a seat." Toshiya's dad told him with a very calm voice and mentioned the armchair to him. And so Kaoru sat down, on the edge of it. He felt tense and miserable. His mind was running a million miles an hour. So many possibilities why they wanted to talk to him came into his mind. Had they found out? Had something happened to Toshiya? He didn't know. All he could do was to sit and listen, and he didn't like this.
"Kaoru-kun... my wife and I just came back from the hospital..."
"Is Toshimasa in the hospital?! Is he injured?!"
Slowly sad tears started rolling down Toshiya's mom's cheeks. Kaoru felt like somebody had pierced his heart with a knife.
"Our son... disappeared two hours ago from this world."
Kaoru felt the blood inside his veins rushing down from his head to his feet. He got pale immediately. His hands started shaking, his gaze blank.
"This is not true, isn't it? This is not true!!"
Kaoru jumped up form the armchair he had been sitting on and ran to Toshiya's bedroom. He swung the door open and saw the used bed with the blood stained sheets.
He covered his mouth with his palm, so he wouldn't scream.
With hesitant steps he moved towards the bed and kneeled down in front of it. Silently, just to himself, he started whispering that this was not true. The first tears started rolling down Kaoru's cheeks. He just shook his head. This couldn't be true. How could the one he loved, his precious one, his treasure in life, slip out of his hands? How could he just disappear?
He buried his face in his arms and cried. He cried for his beloved one to return into his arms.
Suddenly he felt his stomach turning. He felt getting sick. The smell of the drying blood came to his nose and it made his stomach turn, so he just made it to the toilet to throw up.
After calming down a bit he returned to the living room, where Toshiya's mom and dad had waited for him. His facial expression was just blank, or better said numb. The only thing he could talk and think about now was Toshiya.
He sat down in that armchair again and looked at Toshiya's parents.
"How did this happen?"
Mrs. Hara explained it all to Kaoru with a very calm and sad voice:
"Last night when I went to the toilet I saw the lights in Toshimasa's room still on. I opened the door after I knocked to it and heard no response. And there he laid... he died in the hospital."
