Chapter 6: Twinkles Death
Chapter 6
Severus spend the rest of the night waiting for Sirius. He was worried... where was he going to sleep tonight...? What was he going to eat? Twinkles checked up on him a few times, shaking her head every time she saw that he was still awake. But the Slytherin couldn’t help himself. He couldn’t sleep. Cursing the Gryffindor, he finally got up again and walked down into the kitchen.
“Twinkles, go to bed.” he said, looking at the House elf. “I’ll take care of the rest.”
“Thank you Master Severus. I will see you in the morning.” the house elf bowed down, and walked away.
Severus started cleaning up the kitchen, and everything else he could find, just to take his mind off of the Gryffindor. But it didn’t really work. His eyes wandered around the room, as he saw a knife lying on the table. He swallowed hard. He had promised it to Anna and Sirius... he had promised not to cut himself anymore... but he still had the urge, the wish to get the knife and cut deep into his arm. Just to see the blood. Just to feel the pain, and get rid of the pain that Sirius has caused him a few hours ago. Sirius wasn’t here... Anna wasn’t here... if he just did one, light cut... no one would notice... so he walked to the knife, and took it in his hand. The handle was wood, and felt nice and smooth against his hand, while the metal felt cold and... somehow soothing. He pushed his sleeve and looked at his scared arm. Finally... he was going to see it again...
He breathed in deeply, and than muttered to himself “Only one cut Sev... and only a small one... and not a deep one...” and then he cut. It wasn’t deep, and It didn’t really bleed. But as soon as he had seen it, his old addiction was back. He cut again, this time deeper. This time more blood welled up from the wound and trickled down his arm. Severus smiled. This felt so good...but he had to stop... Sirius would notice if he cut to much... but it felt so good... Severus was just about to cut once again, as he heard an angry growl. He quickly looked up and saw Sirius standing in the kitchen right in front of the door.
“Sirius...” he whispered, and bit his lower lip, letting the knife fall. Sirius just walked towards Snape, took him by the hand and pulled him into the bathroom, not saying one word. If Sirius shouted and screamed he was angry. If Sirius didn’t say a word he was about to kill someone. As they got into the bathroom, Sirius cleaned and vetted the Slytherins wounds.
They both were silent for a while till Snape said “...I’m sorry Sirius... I... I swear I don’t do it anymore, just this one time... I... I was so sad... and confused...” Black eye’s met brown ones.
“I’m sorry too...” Sirius sighted “I didn’t mean to say those mean things... I... I just don’t trust Lucius... please, please be careful with him...” Severus nodded and gave Sirius a small smile.
“Let’s go back to bed...” he said, standing up and looking at Sirius.
The Gryffindor nodded, and returned the small smile. Then both of them walked up to their rooms. Severus quickly got into bed, snuggling into the warm blankets. He was about to fall asleep when he felt something wet nudging his cheek. He slowly opened his eyes and saw a big black dog sitting next to his bed, looking at him with two begging eyes.
“Oh dear lord Sirius...” he mumbled, but then scooted a little so that Sirius could jump up on the bed and lay down. “Now go to sleep.” Sirius gave a small bark, and closed his eyes. Severus couldn’t help but smile...
Severus was woken from a delicious smell right in front of him. He opened his eyes, and looked at a grinning Sirius and a tablet with food. “Breakfast in bed?” he asked, slowly sitting up.
“Hell ya” Sirius laughed “I love eating in bed It’s so warm and comfortable” he quickly got under the covers with the Slytherin, making Severus blush slightly. “So, do you want toast or an egg first?” Sirius asked, while he started munching on a toast himself.
“I’ll take a toast please.” Severus answered. Sirius handed him the toast, and started eating his egg.
Both of them enjoyed there meal, before Severus got up to take a shower. Meanwhile, Sirius turned into a dog, walking around and exploring. Most of the other rooms where nit very interesting, just the normal rooms a house had. He walked up the stairs, leading him into some kind of loft. But as he tried to open the door, he found that it was looked. Now Sirius was even more eager to get inside it.
“Master Severus keeps this door looked at all times.” Sirius almost had a heart attack as he heard the small voice of the house elf next to himself. He turned into his human form, and looked at the house elf.
“Who’s room is this?” he asked. “And why is it always looked?”
Twinkles sat down an the stairs, and said “It was the Room of Master Severus Mother. Master Severus und her would hide here from his father four hours. She would sing to him, read to him, hug him. Everything she couldn’t do when his father was with them.”
Sirius sighted “So he was a real ass I take it?” Severus didn’t speak about his childhood. The Gryffindor always had the feeling that Snape didn’t want to speak about it, because he was trying everything to forget it.
“Master Snape’s father was...” Twinkles sighted. “He was an alcoholic, and a bad father and husband. What once had started with love, had ended in hate. He cheated on his wife a lot, and hit Master Severus a lot. And after the death of his wife... he went mad.
Sirius nodded “Sev told me about what happened... But if this room is so full of happy memories, why does he have it looked?”
Twinkles looked at Sirius and said “The Master spent very much time in there after his mother’s death, and after the death of his father. Twinkles does not know exactly what Master Severus did in there, but Twinkles heard him crying, and breaking things. He wouldn’t let old Twinkles in, no, not ever. After his second year in Hogwarts Master Severus looked the room, and ordered me not to go inside ever again.”
Sirius sighted, and looked at Twinkles “He didn’t have it easy in life in Hogwarts either. We used to pick at him a lot. With every one else.”
Twinkles nodded and answered “Twinkles knows. Master Severus talks to Twinkles when he is here alone. He tell’s me about what happens in his letters to. Master Severus is very kind do Twinkles and treats her like a human. That makes Twinkles very happy. And so Twinkles tries to help Master with advice and comforting.”
This time it was Sirius turn to nod, and he said “So you think he’ll ever get over what we’ve done to him? He is nice towards me at least but... he really, really hates everyone else except that Malfoy jerk.”
Twinkles said “Master Severus’ trust is not easy to get back once you’ve lost it. But when he trusts, he trusts with heart and soul.” the old house elf sighted, and then looked at Sirius again. “May Twinkles ask the Masters friend a favor?”
Sirius just smiled and said “It’s Sirius. And ya, sure, why not. Shoot.”
Twinkles gave him a small smile and then asked “Please take good care of my Master. Don’t leave him alone when he’s sad, and don’t let others pick on him. He’s very lonely and deep inside he’s not as strong as you might think he is. I’m not going to be here for long anymore. I need you to promise that you will take very good care for my Master when I’m gone.”
Surprised Sirius looked at the house elf “What do you mean, you’re not going to me here for long anymore?”
Twinkles gave him another smile, but this one was a tiered, sad one. “I’m very old Master Sirius. And even with Master Severus potions to keep me strong, I am growing weaker. It’s time for me to leave soon. So I need to know that there is someone around to take care of him. Someone who he can come to when he feel’s broken and tired of everything. Someone who will protect him from the outside world, as of the darkness inside him.”
Sirius leaned back, closing his eye’s and sighting. “I promise I’ll do my best... but he’ll be hurting deep after you’re death, I hope you know that. You are really important to him.” That just made the House elf smile again.
“Thank you Master Sirius. Oh and.. please keep an eye on the Malfoy boy. He seems to have taken a liking to Master Severus, but I fear that he is not the right one for him.” with that she stood up, and started walking down the stairs.
“Oh hell, I will.” Sirius grinned. He started to really like this house elf...
Sirius was startled as he heard Severus call his name in horror. He quickly jumped up, almost tripped on the stairs, and quickly followed Severus sobbing. As he found him in the kitchen, the boy was curled up in a corner, crying.
He quickly walked to the Slytherin, taking him in his arms, cradling him against his chest. “What’s wrong Sev? Come on, what’s wrong...?”
Severus just sobbed again, and then pointed to something. Sirius looked at where he was pointing, and saw Twinkles lying on the floor, not moving. Sirius sighted.
“It’s okay Sev... shhh...” he whispered in the ear of the boy, his voice deep and soothing. “It’ll be okay... I’m here...”
Severus couldn’t stop crying for another two hours. He just couldn’t. After that, he just snuggled up to Sirius more, digging his fingers in his shoulders.
“Don’t go...” he whimpered. “Don’t leave me alone..”
“I won’t sev. I won’t leave you alone I promise.” Sirius just held the boy, comforting him. Then he picked him up, and carried him away from the body.
He laid him on the Sofa in the livingroom, gently stroking his hair. “Hush Severus... I’m here. You’re not alone. Now rest...”
Severus’ eyes where red and he was still shaking, but he nodded. As Sirius got up he quickly reached for him, pulling him back by his hand. “Don’t go!”
“I’m just fetching you a blanket Sev.” Sirius softly smiled at him, and then stood up again and got the blanket that laid on the chair. He carefully covered the boy, and gave him a small kiss on the forehead.
Severus gave a small sob, holding on to Sirius, and said “Don’t leave me alone... please... don’t...”
Sirius just shook his head, stroking the hair of the Slytherin. “I’m not going to go Sev. Know close you’re eyes, and rest. I won’t leave your side.”
Severus nodded, and then finally closed his eyes and fell asleep. Sirius sighted, watching the boy sleep. He somehow got the feeling, that the next few day’s were not going to be easy.
So I hope you liked this chapter I had a song in mind while I wrote it. It was “Our farewell” from Within Temptation. Please read and Review
