Ignorance is bliss von Merilsell (Absence makes the heart grow fonder....RyuuXShuu-goodness) ================================================================================ Kapitel 1: A gamble can be risky....or the thing which is needed ---------------------------------------------------------------- Disclaimer: I obviously don´t own Saiunkoku Monogatari and their characters. Meh. I only own this crazy, and dirty mind of mine, which created this story. Muaharharhar. ------------------------------------------------------------------------- Chapter 1: A gamble can be risky....or the thing which is needed -------------------------------------------------------------------------- ***** "Absence sharpens love, presence strengthens it." --Thomas Fuller ***** Shuurei could hardly stifle a yawn as she finished yet another page of her report. She glared at the looming pile of paperwork before her, as if willing it to shrink in size. She had once again sacrificed sleep to stay over night in the archive for getting the massive amount of paperwork done. There was no other way of doing so, because it was an important case she worked on and Kouki her chief of the section of Government inspection needed the finished files as soon as possible. Where the hell was Seiga anyway? "Good-for-nothing idiot, can't be counted on to do his share," Shuurei muttered to herself before shaking her head and putting down the pen, taking a deep breath as she did so. “Well, okay, maybe it's time for a little break - just a little - to ease my mind; it is a wonderful clear night after all.” the young woman said and decided to take a short walk in the beautiful royal garden before finishing the rest...or as much as possible. She sighed. “Damn you, Seiga. How should I alone get this much work done before morning?” Shuurei rubbed her tired eyes with both of her hands. Well, she had to make it or Seiga and Kouki would never acknowledge her as official of their section and whining about it wasn´t helpful at all. “I practically begged chief to be allowed to work over these files, so it's my turn to repay his trust. Well, after finishing the walk,” she decided, while leaving the archive in the direction of the door. As soon as she stepped outside, Shuurei inhaled the cold fresh air and immediately felt her mind freed a bit from the hours of repetitive desk work. It was a perfect night to take a walk, not too chilly anymore and the half rounded moon shone brightly over the palace garden. Shuurei found it quite amazing how quiet and peaceful this normally overly busy place could be late at night. She didn´t even see a single guard around, which either meant they went patrolling or to sleep, she silently mused. It´s wonderful here - now I understand why Ryuuki liked to stroll through the garden, when he couldn´t sleep, Shuurei thought with a faint smile on her lips. Wait..., her eyes widened, ....what if I meet him now while wandering around here? He is the last distraction I could need now. ...and Ryuuki doesn´t even know I´m here at this time of the night, so meeting him would be kind of... awkward. She panicked lightly. Actually, a small part of her wished for meeting him this way (though she would never admit it to anyone). Neither had seen the other for the past few weeks due to being overloaded with their work. Shuurei could imagine that ruling a country wasn´t a job which left much free time and it was quite noticeable to her that Ryuuki took his duty as emperor much more seriously now compared to the times before. Yes, he was handling things more maturely and had indeed grown as a king - since that incident in the Kyuusai cove - this was a certainty she could not deny. Yet somehow she couldn´t shake off the nagging feeling of him....avoiding her. Albeit this fact seemed quite ironic to Shuurei - Wasn't he always the demanding one in their relationship? In their always returning routine of Ryuuki confessing his undying love to her, while Shuurei was the one who constantly shrugged him off, saying he should give his love to someone else? Even after she had told him dozens of times that he had to give up, the young kind had always refused to follow her advice, three years long. All the more was she taken aback as Ryuuki made this kind of suggestion not so long ago: A gamble, an agreement. Shuurei could easy recall every single one of their words in her mind, as if it were said yesterday: “An emperor must marry. If that is a duty as a king we´ll get married. This means we can´t wait forever for you, Shuurei. In addition, if we marry someone other than you it will be Jyuusan-hime.” Wait wha...huh? Why all the sudden? Instantly, her mind and heart started racing again, just like that time she had heard those words from him. She couldn't believe what he was saying there; Shuurei felt her face fall out in disbelief. Ryuuki observed her reaction carefully and was pleased with what he saw. That's good, it looks like we still have a chance, he inwardly smiled. “So let's play a game: we´ll set a time limit," the young emperor added. "If you continue to escape us until then you win. We´ll never say that I want to marry you again; We won´t trouble you.” Shuurei couldn´t do anything except stare at him, dumbfounded. “However, if I manage to make you accept my proposal, I win. How about that?” Ryuuki finished and looked expectantly at her, hoping she would react the way he thought she would. What. He´s suggesting a gamble? This was all she was able to think in this moment. However, what a foolish desperate idea of Ryuuki. Why is he doing that? He knows I would never give up my dream being an official to marry him. “It sounds like you are at great disadvantage,” she proudly declared to him. “Well, fair enough. I´ll play your game. What is your time limit?” Ryuuki smiled inwardly - she had reacted like he thought. He was pleased to know that he knew her well enough. And with that thought he bowed down to her to whisper the time limit in her ear. What Shuurei heard then didn´t surprise her - it was just so typical for them. *** Kapitel 2: Irritations of heart ------------------------------- ******************************** Chapter 2: Irritations of heart ********************************* The affections are like lightning: you cannot tell where they will strike till they have fallen. -Jean Baptiste Lacordaire -------------------- Two months had passed since that day they made that arrangement. She walked on until she stood right in front of the alley where the sakura trees were located. She didn´t know why she was wandering this way and before she fully realized it, she was already there. In front of the tree where Ryuuki and she first met so long ago. The branches of the trees rustled in the fresh breeze and the cold wind caused her to shiver momentarily. In spite of the chilly gust at times, it was indeed one of those many mild nights lately, indicating that the winter was almost gone. As Shuurei looked up to the clear night sky and to the branches of "their" sakura tree, she recognize a few little buds, which would surely bear flowers soon. “Until the cherry blossoms bloom...” These words said by Ryuuki echoed clearly in her mind. This was their time limit ...and in barely one month it would become spring - this she knew for sure.... “Looks like I´ll win, huh?” she silently breathed to herself. “Ryuuki will give up on me and marry Jyuusan-hime ...it would be better for all of us, I never intended to give up my job for him anyway." But why was she willing to make this agreement with him months ago? She failed to find a proper explanation for her actions back then. Maybe she wanted to proof something to him, just what was it? In her eyes Jyuusan-hime was the most fitting wife for him. She was beautiful and well mannered; more than Shuurei ever could be. Jyuusan-hime was literally predestined to be on the side of the emperor, because she would be by far the more elegant empress. Shuurei sighed - why was this bothering her anyway? No, she was just imaging that because if Ryuuki would take her as his wife all of their problems would be solved. Shuurei wouldn't have to give up being court official and Ryuuki could solve the heir problem and also represent an elegant empress on his side. Yet there was a slightly dejected feeling spreading inside of her as she thought of Jyuusan-hime as Ryuuki´s wife. She shrugged to get rid of it and didn´t really understand where it came from, because there was no reason for feeling down, was there? She indeed was happy with her fulfilling job. It had been her life's dream to work as imperial official and since a few years, she was living her dream. And it was all thanks to Ryuuki, who made it possible with the relatively new law he installed, which allowed women to take part in the world of politics, something had been strictly forbidden before. Therefore, Shuurei felt a strong obligation to support him as a subordinate with all her heart. ...Although, that was not the only reason. She also thought that Ryuuki was a fine king ...and man. She reminisced on the mental picture of him - he always seemed to be happy when seeing her. So it was utterly beyond her comprehension why Ryuuki avoided her since he had made this agreement with her. She hadn´t seen him for a couple of weeks now, so there was in fact very less time left for him to "win". No I must just imagine that he doesn´t want to cross my way, she shrugged, I bet he´s just busy with governing his country. Shuurei was confused by those nonsensical thoughts which suddenly flooded her mind. Why do I care so much about this fact anyway? I mean, I should be more happy about the fact that Ryuuki stopped chasing after me, shouldn´t I? It´s better for us both. Despite these thoughts, Shuurei recently caught herself thinking of him and what he was doing from more often than she wanted and it really bugged her. She took a deep breath and leaned on the tree, while sinking into her thoughts again. Why did her mind fill up with questions regarding Ryuuki when she had some quiet moments to herself? She had sworn to herself never to fall in love- it was the last thing she could ever need. In the world of politics one always had be tough and hence love wasn´t something Shuurei would attach any great importance to. Because to love meant to show feelings - a luxury Shuurei couldn´t allow herself in a world ruled by men. No it isn´t love, I´m just worried about him, she reassured herself. She hadn´t seen him for several weeks now and didn´t know if he was okay at all. And before she fully realized it, her mind was annoyingly circling around Ryuuki again. Why doesn´t he come to see me anymore?, she was asking herself, before she wondered about how he was doing. Is he still afraid of sleeping alone in the dark? He shouldn´t be lonely anymore since he now has Jyuusan-hime on his side, right? She recalled seeing him in a few official meetings at last, but it didn´t gave her the clarity of mind she searched for. Because she knew that in those meetings Ryuuki always had to hold up the charade of being “the emperor”. So seeing him then wasn´t really conducive to her knowing if the person Ryuuki was okay. The young woman tried to focus her mind on the more important things like her actual work, but no matter how hard she tried to desist, her mind kept circling back on finding the reason why Ryuuki avoided her like the plague. He never acted that way before and this was something Shuurei confused her more than she liked to. She felt a nagging feeling creeping up in her stomach and remain there, much to her discomfiture. No, it couldn´t be that I actually miss him, or could it? She bit her lower lip on this thought and tried to get rid of it, but failed. So Shuurei indeed became annoyed with herself: “Oh great, just great. Instead of finding a solution for the problem I have on my files I´m worrying about that stupid emperor!" she blurted out into the night. Then a thought hit her mind. What if I shortly check up his place to see if Ryuuki is okay? No, she shouldn´t do that, because she knew the idea was much too weird to implement and she had to get back to business; there was still so much work to do! So despite knowing that giving in to this slightly unusual idea wasn´t the wisest thing to do; Shuurei´s feet already seemed to find their destination of their own. Her room had been next to his back in the days; therefore, it wasn't surprising at all that she didn't have any trouble finding the correct way again. The king's private chamber, where she had once stayed the night with him... at the time as he had protected her from the poison by drinking it himself. "Yeah great plan, Shuurei what now? Knocking on his door? I couldn´t peek in, I´m sure the guards would arrest me on the spot...or at least ask what I´m doing here," she quietly muttered to herself. Meeting a guard now would end in a most humiliating situation, so she'd definitely like to avoid that particular confrontation like the devil avoided the holy water. How am I supposed to answer anyway? Excuse me, Mr. imperial guard for sneaking around here, but I haven´t had a small talk with his highness for over two months! That's the reason why I´m now checking him up late at night?! Yeah right! Not exactly my duty as his subordinate. What the heck was I thinking by coming here? Shuurei was highly annoyed with her irrational act now. I just should be glad that no guard is around...again. Slowly she wondered if there were any guards on duty at all tonight. She pondered if she should inform Seiran about their bad discipline tomorrow. I mean what if something happens to Ryuuki? ...ahh, not again, she shrugged, feeling perturbed and embarrassed for giving in to her stupid idea. She knew she should go back to her desk and finish her paperwork... after all, that was so much more important than sneaking around here late at night and worrying about Ryuuki. I shouldn´t be here at all. She was sure he´d be okay and felt truly idiotic about the fact that she stood here - outside his room. Irked with herself and despite her intention to leave, her eyes still remained fixed on Ryuuki´s door. She shortly shrugged and slowly turned around to leave. Let´s go back no-- "AAAAAAAAH!" A single scream parted the silence in the night. ” Ryuuki!!!” Shuurei yelled out in horror. All her former intentions were forgotten in a split second. It was Ryuuki who had screamed there - she would recognize his voice among thousands. Her mind raced and she was highly alarmed. What happened? Was he hurt? She feared the worst, so she turned around as fast as she could and without thinking, practically barging into his room. As soon as she entered, she froze on the spot. Shuurei saw how Ryuuki sat up in his bed, panting heavily, his face deeply buried in both hands...and seemingly ...crying? She blinked and couldn´t believe her eyes, yet she felt how her heart faintly ached at the sight. Shuurei knew it was the wrong thing to do, but a bigger part of herself was curious about why Ryuuki was so devastated. So she shoved her doubts aside and slowly came closer until she stood in front of his bed. He still hadn´t noticed her ...”Ryu..uki...?” the young woman softly whispered his name, as if she were afraid to scare him even more with her words. Finally, he recognized the source of the voice and thus turned around to her, while still shuddering massively. “Shuurei?” his tone revealed utter surprise and yet alleviation to see her. Looking straight at his face, Shuurei panicked inwardly, Oh god what was I thinking? What the hell am I doing here? She felt his inquiring gaze resting on her and briefly struggled for words, before blurting out at once, “Ehh, you know I had so much work, so I stayed in the archive over night but needed a break, so I took a walk in the garden and as I was nearby -heaven forbids to tell him why- she added mentally, "then I heard you scream. Where are all the guards by the way? It´s so weird no one is around.” Shuurei felt awkward to the bone, even more as she recognized that her face was burning, yet she didn´t dare to move from her spot. "What happened Ryuuki? Are you alright?" she added very quietly. Ryuuki looked up at her, his eyes still blurred from the tears “I...I had a nightmare, a truly horrible one,” he confessed in a nearly inaudible voice, still struggling to compose himself. So he's drenched in tears because of a nightmare?, she narrowed her eyebrows in confusion “What was so horrible about it, Ryuuki?” Instead of answering her question he suddenly reached out for her, grabbed her by the sleeves of her robe and without warning, pulled her close to him. It all happened in a blink of an eye, too fast for Shuurei´s mind to comprehend. The only thing she was able to notice was how her heart set out for a second at this sudden movement ...and how it started to palpitate faster as she found herself in his arms, in his crushing embrace. A moment of silence passed, where neither of them said a word. After the initial shock had abated, she came back to her sense and the warmth of his body was more than ever obvious to her. At another time, she would have shoved him away instantly, like she used to but right now she was so captured in his arms that that was not an option. She reluctantly surrendered in his arms, a small part of her even wanting to. Shuurei didn´t know why, but his embrace had a somehow calming and comforting effect on her. So despite her mind telling her it would be reasonable to get away from him, she closed her eyes to enjoy the warmth, which fully enveloped her. She decided that her emotional behavior was only due to the relief nothing happened to the emperor ...no, to Ryuuki. “You died,” his whisper suddenly broke the silence between the two and contemporaneously put Shuurei out of her daze. Her eyes widened in bewilderment at his words. “Err what?” The young emperor released her from the embrace but only so far that he was able to look into her brown eyes. “Shuurei, it..was..so real. I saw you...dying... right in front of my eyes. I couldn´t do anything to save you,” he began to sob again, clinging onto the fabric of her arms. She blinked, and stared dumbfounded at him, while her mind tried to grasp the meaning of his words. The reason why he was so devastated earlier was due to what happened to me ….in a dream of his? She was taken aback and although she thought his behavior was a bit too extreme for just dreaming, Shuurei felt slightly flattered and wondered why such a strange warm feeling crept down to her stomach. “Hey, Ryuuki. It was just a dream you had, okay? I´m still here, alive and the same old Shuurei” , she smiled at him genuinely, trying to dispel his heavy thoughts. "Yes, you are right,” he responded with a loving expression on his face, gazing straight into her eyes. “Shuurei is Shuurei.” With these words he reached out for her face, softly cupped her face with his fingers and turned her head lightly to caress her cheek with his fingertips. “We ar....I´m glad that it was just a dream after all,” he smiled adoringly at her. Shuurei's breath hitched, as she perceived how his light touch sent a furious shiver down her spine. Her mind was still occupied with comprehending the reason for it, and she felt her skin like burning on the place where Ryuuki´s fingers had barely brushed her. Why was it like that, why was she all feeling this? Then suddenly recognition hit her. Oh no...it can´t be, please not!, she began to panic at her realization, her breath trembled. This was the last thing she could need at all. I´m just imaging that, right? This could not happen. “Shuurei? Are you okay?” Ryuuki looked puzzled at the image of his beloved before his eyes - she seemed to be really flustered and ...confused all a sudden and he failed to find a reason for it. Shuurei´s mind raced back and forth, pondering how to get out of this situation without letting him notice something. His inquiring stare still lasted on her and made her feel cornered. "I REALLY should go now. So much work and stuff”, she hastily declared. Feeling all awkward by now, her face blushed deeply and she just hoped he wasn't observant enough to notice it in such faint light. "I...I´m g-glad you a-are okay, though," she stammered and tried to get up from his bed. He, however, didn´t release her. “Ryuuki?” she uttered with a mixture of surprise and irritation in her voice. “Shuurei, stay please,” he looked pleadingly at her, clinging onto her as if his life depended on it. He hadn´t seen her for months and was delighted to have her near him, so there was no way he was letting her go now. "N-n-no, ...I can´t," she murmured nervously and half-heartedly tried to get away from him again. Even though Ryuuki failed to grasp exactly why, he knew her well enough to distinguish that Shuurei wasn´t her usual self tonight. At another time she would have snapped at him long before for acting like that, though she didn´t tonight. Seeing her acting so flustered instead in a situation, where she usually was always so violent and self-confident before, made her even more lovely in his eyes. “Just a while, until I´m asleep again, we...I am still afraid of the dark,” he confessed. What an unconvincing reason, he thought, yet he hoped it was persuasive enough. Shuurei shortly got lost in his gaze and felt slightly lightheaded, before she managed to avert her eyes from him. As a person who always chose her words wisely she had never expected her tongue to be faster than her brain one day. “Okay, but really only until then." Damn it, why did I just say that?! Shuurei, remember you wanted to go, so whatever happened to that, she scolded herself mentally. Shuurei sighed. Since when did she give in to him so easily? It was never like this before, and now, how come she couldn't even deny him this one tiny thing? Was it because he looked at her in such a charming way that she couldn´t say no to him? She bit her lower lip in quiet contemplation, and let out another sigh. Wait, Did I just think he was...charming? Since when was his childish behavior charming to her? It was just beyond her understanding how it could come so far. Annoyed with herself, she let out an inaudible sigh and only hoped that he would be asleep soon. Ryuuki was wondered why she didn´t object when he took her hand in his as he laid down again, though he enjoyed it very much. Shuurei, however, sat still on his bed right next to him, shocked by the feeling caused by her tiny hand gently entwined in his. Her heart throbbed frantically. Several endless minutes passed, where she barely dared to move or breathe and just remained in that rigid position. She gulped as she tried to figure the shower of emotions she was feeling due his presence and soft caresses of his hand, fearing Ryuuki could hear her heart, which was surely beating out of her chest now. After another while, she noticed that everything finally went quiet again. Shuurei assumed that he had fallen asleep at last and turned around to check, only to find his face right next to hers. She nearly let out a shriek but froze at the unexpected sight in front of her. Despite her intention to scold him for scaring her like that, she didn´t say anything, because at that moment Shuurei was too captivated by his face. No matter how hard she tried, she just couldn´t avert her eyes from him. Although she already had seen Ryuuki´s face a dozen times before in the past three years, now it was as if she was truly looking at it for the first time. She knew he possessed an annoyingly beautiful face, yet she never noticed its fine details before. Like his well formed cheeks. Or his deep auburn eyes which were gazing back at her with surprise right now. Shuurei´s stare unintentionally landed on his full lips, before she shrugged mentally. Yet she caught herself thinking that every detail of his face seemed indeed so... so... lovely to her. What the... ******* Kapitel 3: Stay with me ----------------------- Disclaimer: I still do not own SaiMono and the characters of it D: *goes in a corner and cries* ****************** "Love is but the discovery of ourselves in others, and the delight in the recognition."--Alexander Smith ***************** Chapter 3: Stay with me *************************************************** “I ...I thought you were slee..sleeping”, Shuurei stuttered, visible blushed. Ryuuki smirked on her reaction and felt more daring. “How am I supposed to find sleep with such a beautiful lady in my room, ehh?!” ,he flirtatious answered and before Shuurei had the chance to protest he leaned in to her and pressed his lips to hers. Her body immediately stifled. Ryuuki could tell on her reaction and muffled curses that she was furious. Okay this is it, now I really went overboard and I´m getting slapped. Mentally he already prepared himself for Shuurei´s wraith for daring to kiss her. Like she had done it every time before, when he acted so forced. However this time happened something Shuurei never believed ever to occur and Ryuuki never dared to dream. She suddenly relaxed in his arms. And kissed him back. Just lightly and hesitant but this was enough to sent Ryuuki to heaven. This was like in his dreams...no better. In those tree years he kissed her a couple of times but it was forced by him and never got a response out of her. But now... She. Really. Kissed. Me, this thought was boldly hammering in his head. Overwhelmed by this new revelation and his feelings he drove her closer until he held her real tight in his arms and renew his kiss, this time with more passion. He was stunned that this one was now received by Shuurei without struggling and found her even leaning in to it. Not that he would ever complain about it, just quite the opposite he was amazed about this fact. He felt her arms moving forward him, wrapping them around his brought shoulders,while her hands began to caress his neck, as their kiss lasted on. Shuurei´s little action drove him crazy and let him shivering. Holding her into his arms like this after three endless years of burning longing and loneliness, was more he ever dared to dream. Their lips parted only to meet rapidly again, now with more desire added. Her heart was beating wildly and her pulse was racing, being closely in his arms she felt the same happening with Ryuuki as well. Shuurei was wondering about herself, why did she let this happen? Even more she did not want him to stop. Back in the days, Ryuuki had stolen her first kiss from her lips as she left the palace and she was furious about it. Though this kiss was nothing compared to the way he kissed her now. His soft yet passionate way he claimed her lips made her feel dizzy ...and oddly so good. The warmth of his body had a very calming and comforting effect on her, while his kisses and light touches sent electric sensations down her spine and let her shivering in delight. Why was she feeling this way about Ryuuki all the sudden? The lines between right or wrong became quickly blurred for Shuurei, more quickly she ever thought it could. A part of her knew it wasn´t right what she was doing here, though as he suddenly kissed her she has forgotten about her intentions to flee out of his room at once. She even had forgotten about the fact that he was the emperor and she his subordinate, definitely crossing a line here she never intended to cross. She didn´t recognize herself as she caught herself in wanting...more of it. More of his kisses, more of the warmth of his body and more of the feelings he strangely caused her to feel inside. Somehow it seemed to her like that all her fears and doubts vanished in his arms. She didn´t think about her insecurities; of being not beautiful or elegant enough for him. No, she felt somehow accepted in his arms, just the way she was; the not so perfect and not so elegant Shuurei. Maybe this was the reason she did not want him to stop? The need of air became soon too present to ignore, so Ryuuki unwillingly separated himself from her with a frustrated groan, snapping for the needed oxygen. As it wasn´t for the air, Ryuuki wouldn´t mind to go on like this forever, yet he relieved himself with gazing in amazement to her. Her breath had speed up and her chest were heavily going up and down just like his own. Maybe it was just his imagination as he observed her face, but it was to him as if he caught a faint smile on her lips. Those lips he kissed so many times by now and intended to kiss all night, now he finally was able to see Shuurei again after two long months and even mjnnso close to him. He tighten his arms around her once more, as if he were still afraid she would disappear in a cloud of puff and leaned his forehead to hers. His voice broke the long lasted silence between them, although it was barely more than a whisper “Shuurei, god I missed you, I missed you so much.“ Ryuuki looked deeply into her brown eyes, seeing an expression of bewilderment and was it….entrancement? in those. So she´s enjoying this as much as I do, huh? Although he knew she never would reveal that to him with words. Ryuuki suppressed a grin on his thought to not unintentionally angering or scaring her away in the end, but he was happy to have this assurance. Also there was no way he wanted her to go now, his desire to hold and kiss her like this got only ignited and was far from being fulfilled. He was wondering if he could wish for even more than „just“ kissing and hugging her and only the thought of it thrilled him more like he imagined. Being the emperor, flattered and addressed only as those by almost all people, he even could easily forget at times, who he was in the first place. A man with wishes, hopes and needs he always have to defer and bury underneath for the sake of being the emperor. Though every time he saw Shuurei he got reminded on being also a man, because she was the biggest part of those dreams. A foolish one maybe, but loving her was what keeps him going through dragging, repetitive palace days. He did not lie when he was saying he could not be king for her sake anymore, but it was something that kept him going on in his often lonely times. Although he had many people around him most the time, no matter if they were praising him for his effort or more likely cursing him for his faults as an inexperienced ruler, he was feeling lonesome most times. Because even most of his friends only saw him as the king and not the person behind this duty. It was different with Shuurei though, but the times he could spent with her privately were always fleeting and rare, since she realized her dream of being an official. A dream he made possible for her, because he wanted her to be happy even if that meant to sacrifice his own little piece of happiness. ******************************************************************** He pushed these dark thoughts back into the deepest corner of his mind, because it didn´t matter at all in the moment. Shuurei was here with him, close and even enjoying his near. So there was no reason for Ryuuki to not taste more of the forbidden fruit she indeed was for him. He was finally able to show her how deeply he adored her, without being pushed away by her like she used to do in other times. He would have been a fool, if he wouldn´t seize this opportunity to make her realize that she was the only one for him, the only woman he ever would hold dear in his heart. So he softly began to kiss her face all over, which electing a happy sigh out of her; before he found his way back to her sweet soft lips, kissing her again. Chaste first as if he were still afraid she would still snap at him for acting like that. Old habits die hard, he mentally mused and was most happy as Shuurei surprisingly responded in the way he hoped for. He deepened his kiss and his breath trembled of anticipation as she parted her lips to give him access to her mouth. Their tongues first met in unassertive yet sweet way and Ryuuki swore he never tasted any more luscious than the way she tasted in his life. He drove her closer and softly caressed her back with his hands without breaking their now intensive kiss. Shuurei was taken aback from all the feelings jolting through her body due to the way he was claiming her mouth now. The way Ryuuki acted now was far from the childlike man, she used to know. No, he knew what he was doing here and she couldn´t deny to like the way he was kissing and touching her. A muffled moan which unintentionally fled free from her lips was the best proof for this. She felt the strange desire to touch him in the same way he did, so her fingertips wandered instinctively over his neat body, brushing its heated skin. Shyly first because she never had touched a man like this before, yet somehow she knew she was making it right as he shivered in enchantment on her feathery light touches. ***************** Then they parted once more for air, not for long though had Ryuuki decided it was about time to distract himself with the other delicate parts of Shuurei´s slim body, as her already enough kissed lips. He affectionately shared kisses over her face one more time, then nibbled lightly on her ear, before he was planting gentle kisses on her neck. He stopped his exploration at her collarbone, which tender flesh he softly sucked in. Shuurei´s breath hitched and she couldn´t hinder that loud moan that escaped from her lips now, as she closed her eyes to give in to this sensual sensation. Her fingers clawed into the light fabric of his night gown while her head tilted back in delight. She was far beyond reasonable thinking by now, caught in that storm of emotions, which made her so carefree about acting this way. ***** Hmm, next is...he smirked as his eyes settled on her chest, which still laboredly went up and down from the lust he caused her moments ago. His hands continued to explore her body without any haste. And Shuurei was fully giving in now to his caressing. He had all night to discover every freckle, every curve of her skin- and he was determinated to seize this amount of time to please her, to show her his love for her. Yet the alluring view of her small yet dainty breasts caught his eyes, soon following by his hands which leisurely traced in that direction. If only I could get rid of her bothering robe, he thought and yearned to touch her soft skin without this troublesome garment of hers. Though he decided to take one step after another, until she maybe would be ready for this. There was enough time after all and he didn´t want to miss a thing, a reaction of her while he was observing his beloved closely. He slightly smirked as he noticed her aroused reaction on his touch of her breast through the fabric. So he intensify his caress a bit to strengthen up the pleasure for her. She leaned her head onto his shoulder, tickling his skin with her faster going breath. **** Shuurei gave in to this overwhelming feeling and also felt that a strange longing seemed to begin to burn between her legs. So she pressed her tights together to make it go away. However this action seemed only to intensify her craving and she caught herself on wishing Ryuuki would touch her there. He could make all this build up tension inside her go away, right? She really hoped for it because this unknown longing was driving her nearly insane by now. She wanted to feel him close to her, although she was tucked firmly in his arms, it somehow seemed not close enough to Shuurei anymore. She leaned in to him and began to kiss his neck, the heat of his skin was smoldering on her lips. She never would have imagined that kissing actually could taste good, yet his skin did to her. A bit salty from his dampened hairline yet mixed with with the smell of soap and the very own scent of his skin she failed to find a comparison to. Though she liked the way he smelled and tasted very much and it were a new, exciting experience for her senses. She trailed down the line of his neck with flighty kisses to his collarbone, while her not-so-shy hands anymore brushed over his nearly clothed broad chest. She wanted to make to him feel good, the same way he was making her feel. Her actions elected a deep, throaty groan from his lips. He caught her mouth once more for a deep kiss, while she let slipped her fingertips under his garment, wandering on the bare skin of his flanks up to his shoulders. She traced smooth and hesitant lines over his skin; it didn´t feel exactly soft under her hands but also not rough, it was just right to her. Ryuuki was trembling, shivering under her touches and broke their kiss for the urge to moan. He buried his face in the crook of her neck and soaked her enticing scent in, licking its sensitive parts. Oblivious to the world around him; he was smelling her, tasting her skin and feeling her hands on his body. Shuurei, Shuurei, Shuurei, he ecstatically repeated her name like a mantra in his head. *********** With only those few touches she was driving him crazy, she had that power over him. Right now he had forgotten about the burning loneliness, the years of craving of Shuurei and the sometimes very lively and graphic dreams he had of her. This was better than any of the dreams he ever had dreamt. He was utterly happy and wished for the night never to end. Yet he quickly got caught in the desire to feel her closer, real close now. He fought against this need, because he feared it were too much for her and would still scare her away in the end. Despite that he knew he would lost this inner fight soon enough; he was just a man after all. A man entangled in the arms of the woman he loved deeply and yearned to feel around his neck like this for years. Shuurei knew from Kochou that men likes to kiss...and also other things, but never would she have expected that a man could enjoy a few simple touches that much, so she was amazed by his reaction. Her eyes widened shortly as he made her laid down onto his bed in a swiftly movement and lightly hovered her with his body. She gasped as she noticed how he nestled on the belt of her dress, was she really willing to....? She couldn´t form an answer to this question she just knew that she didn´t want him to stop touching her, when it strangely felt so delightful. She felt a chilly breeze gusting over her bare skin as he finally were able to set her dress loose, letting her shivering shortly. However all her concerns were pushed back in the deepest corner of her mind as he kissed her softly again, the honey-blond beads of his hair fell loosely onto her neck and tickled her skin. Ryuuki broke the kiss too soon again for Shuurei and shortly paused his movements to rejoice himself on observing her exposed body. Her delicate skin gleamed red-golden in the soft candlelight, making her even more ethereal to him. She had not the most womanly figure he had seen in his life before, yet hers was the most beautiful to him. His eyes drove over her naked skin, were never leaving; it almost seemed like he wanted to memorize every inch of her body as an everlasting memory in his mind. Shuurei felt his ardent gaze momentarily lasting on her chest and blushed, feeling awkward. Why does he stare at me like that? She knew she was rather flat-breasted in comparison with other women at her age, not like Jyuusan-hime.... She huffed, that thought brought her momentarily back to her senses...until it was fast scattered to the four winds again by a extensive wave of this warm, cozy and needy feeling, which was rapidly building up inside her again. She felt his kisses, the hot wetness of his mouth enclosing one of her breasts, sucking and nibbling it carefully, while the sensitive flesh of her other dainty bosom was leisurely stroke by his calloused yet very gentle fingertips. Another moan escaped her lips, as she got lost in the sheer pleasure of the overwhelming feeling. Her hands restlessly flickered over his scapula, tousling through his hair, gripping its silky beads. ******************* She tasted sweeter than honey and wine, her enticing soft skin and the fierce passionate reaction of hers aroused him even more. Ryuuki let his hand wandering to her legs up to her tights, caressing softly the area around her center without touching her there. His need of her grew bigger from every second until it became almost unbearable. He wanted her so badly now, the pulsing between his legs was nearly painful now. He desisted from her breasts, kissing her décolleté, before he continued his exploration with butterfly kisses on her flat belly. His fingertips wandered up as well this time. He discovered the gentle sensation of her inner tight...and the smoldering wetness of her folds. Her breath hitched, only to accelerate more faster than before, as she felt his touch there. That strange longing turned into aching and yet felt she all light-headed and blissful as she noticed how his fingers started to rub that spot skillfully. She curiously stroked that spot one night by herself after Kochou told her that was the point of where woman would feel the most pleasure, if its touched. It felt good yet it was nothing compared to the wonders of Ryuuki´s touches now. Shuurei whimpered in bliss, her whole body started to feel light. She wanted more, so she pressed herself closer to him and gasped as she felt his hardness, a clear sign for his arousal. She felt more and more losing the control of her body with every wave hitting her closer to the peak. Ryuuki muffled her moans with his savoring kiss, mixed with his own as her hips bucked up, colliding firmly against his erected crotches. He was utterly thrilled about the precious sight before his eyes as he continued to work his fingers awfully slowly between her tights. About her delighted face lost in pleasure, about the moans which came so carefree from her lips now, though most about the fact that he was the first man who ever bestowed her with such feelings, such...lust. ******* He tasted the salt of her dampened skin as he licked down the line of her neck to her cleavage. With the other hand he grope around her back, pulling her firmly up to him and tucked her tightly on his chest. He needed to feel her close, wanted her so badly. Yet this closeness wasn´t enough for him anymore, he craved for more. Ryuuki pulled away from her center to entangle her with the other arm as well, ignoring her frustrated groan. Contemporaneously he nibbled softly on her earlobe, causing her another shiver. An „ I want you“ escaped unintentionally from his lips, groaning it raspy in her ear. Although unintentionally he hoped she´d get the meaning of his words because he couldn´t hold back much longer. Yet he didn´t want to do anything Shuurei wouldn´t enjoy as well. Her respond was almost immediate, though non-verbal. She wrapped her arms around him, pressing her waist close to his body, kissing him softly on the lips. She didn´t care about right or wrong anymore, she just didn´t want to stop now; didn´t want to stop these feelings, which made her feel so light and warm at the same time. She didn´t know why but she felt at ease in his arms, happy actually. The closeness and the smoldering, comfortable heat of his body letting her heart eagerly flutter between its accelerated thumping. ******** This was enough of an answer he needed from her. Ryuuki intensified the kiss she had started while quickly disposing his night gown with a few proficient movements. The lightheaded feeling grope Shuurei again as he started to fondle one of her breasts again. She watched dazed how he moved himself fully between her thighs now and strangely positioned her hips. Her breath hitched as she noticed a short, sharply pain down there, though got distracted by Ryuuki lovingly kiss and tight embrace. It just took a few moments before this faintly aching turned into something sensational, even more as he carefully started moving. She let out a loud moan due to the shuddering waves of lust which seemed to encircle her whole being now. Her hands fluttered over the back of his body, despairingly searching for something to grip on, as she soon felt her whole body starting to tremble. She found hold on the sheets, clawed it between her fingers, before he took her tiny hand and gently entwined it in his own. She nuzzled her head into his chest, muffled screams of lust into it before he caught her mouth for a passionate, deep kiss. Ryuuki had indulged with women before to cease his boredom and loneliness, as he still were the neglected prince. Though when he became the emperor he stopped doing this because he didn´t want to become like his father, who slept with several women for the sole purpose to beget an heir to the throne. Those reckless „actions“ of his father also indirectly caused the civil war years ago, under which the whole population of Saiunkoku had to suffer and still haven´t fully recovered yet. However making love to the one woman he deeply adored was totally different to his former experiences, so special. Being with Shuurei this way filled his heart with utter bliss, he rapidly moaned her name into the crook of her neck as he felt himself losing into sweet oblivion. ******* After the tension was finally released, he sank exhausted into her arms, listening to her labored breathing and her heartbeat which wasn´t less frantic than his. Both remained silent, simply enjoying the presence and cozy comfort of each other. Shuurei lazily ran her fingers through his long silky hair, while yawning wholeheartedly. She felt utterly exhausted but also kind of ...peaceful. Yet somehow she couldn´t shake of the feeling of embarrassment for doing all these …things with Ryuuki, for going overboard like this. Though she was too tired now to worry about things like that, for now she just wanted to put that in abeyance and finding the needed sleep. Ryuuki smiled at the butterflies in his stomach and doubted that he ever felt more happier in his life than right in that moment. He looked to her, caressed her cheek and kissed her lips very softly, murmured “Aishiteruze” into it. Shuurei blushed and didn´t answer on his confession, trying to avoid his lovingly stare. She turned away from him to the side, tiredly hugging the silky blanket to her naked body and almost instantly fell into a deep slumber. Ryuuki smiled before cuddling close to Shuurei´s back, he knew Shuurei wasn´t the person for huge emotional words. It had always his part to swear his undying love for her, though even without her words he was able to notice that she finally felt similar for him. She still might been trying to hide it after all but her action and behavior told him otherwise. Because the Shuurei he hold into his arms now, wasn´t yelling at him and pushed him away as usual, no she was actually enjoying his near and even feeling comfortable in his arms. What a wonderful revelation, he beamed on this thought, before his eyelids became heavy and fell asleep. At Shuurei´s side. ********************** Kapitel 4: An unexpected revelation ----------------------------------- ************************** One meets his destiny often in the road he takes to avoid it. -French Proverbs Sayings of French Origin ************************** Chapter 4: An unexpected revelation ::::::::::::::::::::::::: It was early in the morning, even before the morning sun had fully gotten up, as Kou Shouka entered the the royal archive. However he wasn´t here yet to begin with his work, no he was worried. Shuurei didn´t came home yesterday like she promised, so he assumed she stayed at the archive to put another all-nighter for her paperwork. He first checked the desk, she usually used and expected to find her there, sleeping. Though the only thing he´d found was a massive pile of files scattered all over the table. Those papers undoubtedly belonged to her, he could clearly recognized her handwriting on those files. Still no Shuurei to find at all. His sorrows grew, it was so unlike her that she left such important documents lying around in the open. No, he knew his daughter, she never would do such a thing, except... for the case something happened to her. He shrugged, no it was too early to panic, she can watch out for herself quite well. Still it would ease me to know if she´s alright. “And is she here?” Seiran´s worried voice put Shouka out of his thoughts. “No I thought so, but I had no luck. Though she was here” he said and pointed to the desk. “I see, well then I´ll go around searching the palace for her and asking Shuuei and Ensei for assistance”, Seiran decided and was thankful for the fact he was allowed to move everywhere around in the palace as the new general of the imperial army. “Master, would you mind staying here for the case she comes back here?” Shouka pondered this option, before answering: “No. You´re probably right, you can move around more freely than me here anyway ...oh and I better take care of the documents too, heaven forbids what would happen if those would land in the wrong hands. Make sure to inform me though, if you got any news.” “Of course”, Seiran responded, before hastily leaving the archives to seek assistance from the others. Six pairs of eyes would see more than just two anyway. “What Hime-sama is lost?” Ensei shouted out surprised, as he heard the news. “Not exactly lost -rather missed, she has a good sense for direction unlike Kouyuu, you know?!” Ran Shuuei replied casually. Seiran rolled his eyes “This makes the situation even worse, don´t you think? Yes hate me for being worried, but she would never abandon her work so carefree, with all the papers lying still around” “Hehe, Seiran, don´t worry she´ll okay, Hime-sama is smart, probably more than the three of us together” Ensei said. “Yeah smarter than YOU definitely, thats for sure”, Seiran hissed and glared at Ensei. “Enough of our tea-party already, could we please go now and search for Shuurei?” with this words Seiran aimed for the next place where he Shuurei presumed to be. “Yes my general, at your duty” Shuuei sarcastically muttered, before following him right away. They went for different places, amongst others the bureau of government inspection, its small file archive and the royal garden, yet no luck. Seiran was frustrated and was not alone with it. “Any ideas left where she could be? It´s not that I would mind hunting after a woman, but it seems kind of pointless here in such a ridiculous huge place” Shuuei sighed. Ensei however went back to the archive once again to see if she has arrived there meanwhile. Hmm, he has a point here, Seiran thought and was while going through the options left, suddenly struck by an idea. Hold on a second, where the hell is my brother anyway? I haven´t seen Ryuuki around yet, what if Ojou-sama...he mentally shrugged, naah impossible, they haven´t seen each other for about two months. This he knew for sure, because Ryuuki told ...or better said whined about that fact to him constantly. Despite of eliminating this possibility of it already, he wordlessly took the direction to the kings chamber. He could at least ask his brother, if he has seen her, he decided. Shuuei followed him rather puzzled, knowing the end of the path quite well and was asking himself quietly, why of all places, Shuurei should be there. ...Oh.. he inwardly grinned, as this kind of idea flashed to his mind. Maybe I only overestimate his highness by thinking whatever I´m thinking, but for sure is ...its going to be interesting ….either way. Soon enough- not soon enough though for the eager Shuuei - they arrived at their destination. The guards objected first but went immediately silent as they saw Seiran. Authority much, huh? Shuuei mused mentally. Hmm, all quiet here, is my lazy brother still sleeping? Seiran thought, not caring to knock he leisurely opened the door a bit, enough to look through it...and froze at the view. “I....I...think I´ve....found h--her,” he blinked, obviously not believing his eyes. He saw his younger brother lying asleep in his bed- so far so fine- but what the rather eloquent and hard to shock man caused to go rigor ...was the small figure lying close entangled in his arms, snoozing peacefully. Shuurei. And their clothes scattered around the floor was the evidence of what kind of meeting they actually had.... “Huh? answered Shuuei puzzled, before squishing his head also into the door. “Ohoooh. Looks like I didn´t overestimate his majesty at all”, he said quietly, grinned all over his face. “About time huh?”, he looked at Seiran, whose was still trying to figure out what the heck happened. No WHAT happened was pretty much clear...but still... “Come on, give the two love birds some private space, would you?” Shuuei sighed over dramatically and shoved him out of the door, closing it quietly behind him. The guards looked confused at the two men. “Everything is fine, guys, we only had decided to come back later, the emperor is rather...busy now”, he declared cheerfully. Seiran only throw him a glare. “Oh Seiran, don´t tell me you are jealous after all.” “No way. Its just unexpected. ...I´m...surprised”, he confessed, while they slowly departed from this place. Seiran knew about Ryuuki´s feelings for Shuurei too well, he has always been bold with it -maybe too bold- though this was how his brother was ...kind, righteous and when he loved someone he did it with all his heart, he smiled, remembering on Ryuuki´s face as a six years old. Aside his surprise about the sudden change of mind from Shuurei he thought, if Ryuuki is the man she´d choose for her life, she would make a good one ...and he definitely could live with it. Ryuuki loved Shuurei more than anything, therefore she would always get treated with the highest respect and receive his unconditional love. Oujo-sama also knew how to handle him perfectly, he grinned on the picture coming to his mind, where she were scolding the mighty emperor of Saiunkoku like a nagging mother. Yeah they complemented one another quite well, but was Shuurei was really willing to become the empress? Knowing her so well, he wasn´t too sure about it ...and only hoped his kind brother won´t get heart-broken again. “Hime-sama hasn´t come back to the archive, so have you still any ideas where she could be?” A breathless Ensei informed the two man. Seiran and Shuuei didn´t said anything just looked shortly at each other. “My my catch your breath, old man, don´t run if you can´t handle it,” Seiran sarcastically mentioned. “How could you stay so calm, Seiran? I mean what if we really can´t find her? What if something happened to her? “ “No, she is fine, believe me”, Shuuei responded amused. “So the both of you have found her, actually?” Or have you asked the emperor if she has seen her?” Ensei asked pointing to Ryuuki´s private rooms “Yeees, we have”, Shuuei continued. “What, you have found her or asked him?” “Both, actually”, Shuuei replied dryly. Seiran threw Shuuei another “shut up or die” stare , however he was elegantly ignored by him. This was too just much fun for the young man to let it pass. Ensei on the other hand looked rather puzzled at his both friends. What the hell did Shuuei meant with that? “My, my a bit slow today, aren´t you Ensei? Well lets say she stayed at his highness place …for err...an important meeting,” Shuuei chuckled. He knew he would probably get killed by the furious wraith of Seiran for saying this, but he thought it was definite worth it. “What a meeting?...oooh..., Ensei grinned as he finally realized the meaning. Seiran remained silent, though. He decided to punish Shuuei later for his disproportionate announcement, but first he had to figure out what exactly he should tell Shouka about it... *********************************************************************** “Uuarghhh”, yawned Shuurei loudly and stretched her still tired limps. The young women needed a moment to realize where she was, as she opened her eyes. Then realization hit her. Oh right, I came her because Ryuuki had a nightmare and then we...oh god... she blushed, while thinking on what occurred last night. She could still feel his hands and touch everywhere on her body and recognized that her face burned by now, probably in a deep crimson red. How could she went so overboard like this all the sudden? She never even kissed him back before and now suddenly all this happened at once. Oh my god, she mentally panicked. Though she had to admit all these strange things Ryuuki had done to and with her felt so- so unexpectedly good. Was that the reason she didn´t told him to stop? Notwithstanding the sane part of her reluctantly pleaded to her to do so before she tuned that inner voice out, as she got swept away with passion; more quickly than she ever had imagined? Or was this because she felt so strangely at ease in his arms, enjoying his near? She had never acted so emotionally before, never let a person fully seen her more vulnerable side, where she just acted like what she actually was. A woman. Shuurei sat up in his bed, bit her lower lip and tried to find a reason how Ryuuki could crumble her walls she constantly had build up around her emotions so instantly down with just one kiss of his. She knew it was wrong what she had done with him, he was the emperor after all. Why didn´t I told him to stop then? Her mind was searching for a reason to justify her behavior last night - yet failed to find one. She only knew that her actions might have been complicating things between the two. The last night blurred the lines between being his subordinate and the woman he obviously loved even more. Shuurei felt embarrassed and couldn´t decide if it was a good thing or not that Ryuuki wasn´t here anymore. Maybe it was really for the better in this moment. She didn´t know how to face him at the moment. “Oh, you are awake now, fine”, a cheerful female voice startled her out of her thoughts. She looked up to the sound just to find the face of Ran Jyuusan-hime smiling at her. Good morning... or whats left of it, slept well? Shuurei´s eyes widened, oh noo she has seen me, here...naked...in his bed...oh my god..., was the only thought she was able to form in her panic state. Jyuusan-hime coolly overlooked the embarrassed Shuurei while saying: “I should tell you that his majesty....or Ryuuki for you, she winked to her with one eye, is terrible sorry he can´t be with you now, but his presence were indispensable for an important matter of the court. Therefore he asked me to take care of you,” she finished. Shuurei found finally her voice again “Ryuuki...did WHAT?” “Don´t worry Shuurei, I´m the lady in waiting remember? Its my job to do the tasks the king gives to me discreetly and I´m good in it. So here use these clothes and I also have boiled you some water, you might wanna clean yourself up before leaving”. “Yes...thanks”, Shuurei said puzzled, while still sitting in bed. “Oh, sorry I almost have forgotten about that”, Jyuusan-hime nestled shortly in her robe to put out a letter and handed it to Shuurei. “He thought it would be more personal this way” Shuurei stared dumbfounded at the letter for a second before taking and reading it; My love, I´m sorry for not being with you when you get awake, my job really can be annoying at times. However as much I would like to now I can´t forsake my duty, but I really hope to see you again later. Be nice to Jyuusan-hime, I have asked her for those things. I love you. -Anonymous Shuurei looked absent-minded on the writing of the letter for a moment. That idiot, how could he do something so careless? What if this falls into the wrong hands? ….Okay he hasn´t written any name on it, but it clearly showed the handwriting of the emperor. Every minister and official would be able to recognize it. She shortly huffed angry before giving in to the temptation to read it one more time. On a second thought this is typically Ryuuki, so cute. She smiled to herself for a split second before gripping the meaning of her thoughts. Wait... did I thought cute??? She suppressed the urge to hit herself and just let out a silent sigh. Jyuusan- hime grinned inwardly, she didn´t miss the change in Shuurei´s face expression from irritation to delightedness as she watched her reading the letter. It was there for just a mere second but there was actually something like bliss on that girls face for sure. „I´m glad for you both, really.” , she stated firmly. “Huh why? I mean..its not like that, really”, Shuurei awkwardly blurted out. Jyuusan-hime quirked an eyebrow. Oh well there she sit, naked in his bed and told me “its not like that”? Yeah right. Is that girl really so hopeless? For a moment she admired the kings persistence and willingness to suffer so long for the one he loved, although the one seemed still to deny her love for him after all. Hmm, time to test her a bit, she decided and sat down to her on the edge of the bed.”You know, Jyuusan-hime started, I never actually intended to marry his majesty, even not after the agreement you both made” Shuurei looked at her surprised “What?” The Ran princess sighed, “As you might know its a promise I made to my older brother triplet, if they save someone´s live I would do anything they asked. So I´m repaying this debt by entering the imperial residence- and now as lady in waiting. Also you probably remember that I love someone else anyway.” Shuurei nodded “You mean the one-eyed skinny man at the Kyuusai cove?” “Yes, it may be foolish after all what happened there, but thats how love is; unreasonable. I still can´t forget about him“, Jyuusan- hime looked down, “ I even thought about to forsake my family´s wish or my family themselves to search for him”. It was not a lie she was telling Shuurei, in the lonely nights here in the palace she often thought about him, about the last time when she saw Shiba Jun. It still hurt her to left him behind like that and wished she could search for him, to see him one more time. Though Jyuusan-hime didn´t tell her that this was a forlorn, hopeless wish she had. Like Shuurei she was bound to her family name and duty, maybe even more as Shuurei. She was able to do how she please at last, living her dream of being an official and even held the heart of the emperor of Saiunkoku. Her brothers however would never give her so much freedom or even the possibility to search for the man who had fallen so low in the eyes of the Ran-clan. No, she was bound to her promise, bound to the palace and maybe even bound to marry a man she didn´t love. A so called political marriage, which would strengthen up her family´s position as the mightiest clan of Saiunkoku. Jyuusan-hime however, even she did love her family, her brothers, would gladly pass on the opportunity of this marriage. She actually liked the emperor, he was a kind and righteous man, though both of them would never be able to get happy with each other. Under other circumstances maybe yes, but not when their hearts were already given away to others. Shuurei was taken aback by her confession, though she had told her a bit about the man she loved before, she never expected that she would go to that extent for him. Love is.... unreasonable? Jyuusan-hime´s words echoed in her mind and Ryuuki´s mental picture appeared before her eyes, before she inwardly shrugged. “Do you love him?” The Ran Princess asked. “Huh?” said Shuurei, startled out of her thoughts. ” I mean the emperor, do you love him?” Jyuusan-hime looked straight to the young womens face. Shuurei blinked and tried to avoid her eyes, the question hit her unprepared. “Err... what? ....N-n-n...no, I-I can´t”, she managed to bring out and felt her heart fluttering rashly. Why is she asking something like that out of the blue? ...loving him? Sure she felt at ease in his arms, that was a fact she couldn´t deny anymore. But was that really.... love? She noticed that her face began to burn again at that thoughts and failed to calm the wild palpitation of her heart down. “Aside that I can´t marry him anyway.” Shuurei added hastily. “Why?” she narrowed her eyebrows in confusion. “I have other goals in life, then only being a wife. I love my job. I worked so hard for my dream to become an official and I don´t want to give it up now. There is still so much I want to achieve”, Shuurei declared. Jyuusan-hime expected her to say something like that, yet this sounded more convincing at other times. Good, same Shuurei-chan, always sturdy and unaware of certain things, she smiled to herself as she thought on her next sentence she would say to her. A sentence which hopefully draw an evidently reaction out of her. “So then you are fine with me marrying the emperor?”Jyuusan hime asked her with the most innocent sweet undertone in her voice she was able to. “Whaaat? But you have sai...”, Shuurei blurted out, before quickly covering her mouth with one hand, her eyes widened. Damn. She was appalled by her immediate reaction and inwardly cursed her mouth, which was faster than her brain....again. Oh what an interesting and unexpected revelation we got here, Jyuusan-hime inwardly grinned. Well, congratulation your highness, it seems that she isn´t so hopeless after all..., she thought. Jyuusan-hime stood up from the bed, “Err Shuurei-chan, I´m sorry I have to go now, you may get ready if you don´t wanna late for your job...or better say even more late. It was nice to have you seen again, though.”, she waved to her and leaved nonchalantly. “Oh my god its that late already?” Shuurei´s eyes widened, as she saw the sun was already standing high up in the sky. She rushed out of bed and got ready with the water and clothes Jyuusan-hime prepared for her as fast as she could. She bound the mess of her hair loosely to a ponytail before running down the hall to the department of imperial investigation. “Arhh, Ryuuki, someday this man will be my death”, she angrily muttered, while she was hoping that she now didn´t get fired on the spot. *********************************************************************** “Oooh if that´s not Kou-”sama”, nice you that you still honor me with your presence after all...” Ki Kouki sarcastically hissed, as Shuurei breathlessly entered his office. “I´m...sor...sorry, sir I over...over slept”, she stammered, still trying to catch her breath from running here. “Hmm is that so? Well I don´t have use for officials who doesn´t take their duty serious”, he narrowed his eyes, looking sharply at her. “No- its not like that-...I-I...“ “Silence I don´t care why you late, I don´t want to hear it” Before Shuurei could explain herself, Kouki hushed her rapidly. “More importantly, official Kou you were working on a case, right? So what are your results? Where are the documents? You do have the files I´ve given to you, right?” The documen....OH NO!!! I let them in the archive, Shuurei´s eyes widened in panic, her mind raced. This is it.... I´m done, now I´m getting fired for sure. She braced herself for the worst. ********************************************* Hosted by Animexx e.V. (http://www.animexx.de)